Feelings why do we have them?

I want to write so much of what I'm feeling. But don't know how to put it down. The oldest called me this morning from my house saying he couldn't get a hold of his mom to come pick him up. No answer to text or phone calls. So I sent off a text to the wife asking if every thing was ok and telling her I was a little worried because the oldest had been trying to get a hold of her with no answer. And to let me know she's ok.

I thought long and hard about this before I sent it. For one she doesn't know I drove past the house this morning and she and the hole family had expressed concern about OM and his actions. With the way things were going and every thing, I didn't think this was pursuing. But that was a couple of hours ago. And the oldest hasn't returned my phone call and she hasn't returned my text. So I guess I know the answer. Emotions blah!


M36/W30
S13,D10,S6
Married 4.5 together 12
Bomb 1/14
EA/PA OM 1/14 still going
Served 2/14/14
Separated 3/14
D paused 6/14
6/15 divorced