Life 2.0 Pt 7

[NH115]

I'm really getting to enjoy early mornings like this; everyone's asleep, and I have plenty of time to enjoy my coffee, write, and think.

We went to a friend's party last night. We had a good time, although the wine helped a bit, I'm sure. I had a great time sitting out in front of their outdoor fireplace, chatting with some of the guys. It's amazing how much I enjoy just simple, pleasant conversation nowadays

She said something about being terrified that I was leaving. Good. She asked for a delay in me moving out so she could get through her surgery next month, since she'll need my help with recovery, at least for a few days. I'm OK with that. Her health is important enough. It would take me a few weeks to nail down an apartment and get finances in order anyway.

I remember she said a while back that one of the reasons she had lost faith in me was that I was not a boat rocker and would not confront when necessary. She was right about that. She should be more careful what she wishes for. This boat is getting rocked.

Goal for today, GAL, have a good day. I have a student to fly with in a couple of hours, then work out (race is next weekend). The weather's going to be beautiful here today, in the 70s. My kind of day. I do NOT love winter.

My goal with her is to be her friendly neighbor. I'm done initiating affection with her. If she wants a husband, and I mean a husband for real, she knows where to find me. She's going to have to pull some of the weight around here. She really thinks that I should do all the work of repairing our relationship since it's my fault it's broken. She says I had everything with her and I threw it away. I'm remembering things a bit differently. I love her, to be sure, but she wasn't always the best wife herself.