Wow, I think you're doing awesome! Great that you are making changes in you. As you know, this is the only person we can control.
And like Sage said, all of H's behaviors are normal..for MLC. How you handle all of this is the key. Oh and the anxiety, I can relate to that feeling. It was like my body was "electric" I was on full alert and couldn't relax or get calm. Lost weight because the appetite does leave during times of anxiety.
The learning process we all go through during this does take time. So keep working on yourself, it sounds like you have some really good reading material, and keep dbing.
