Just want to say that you sound much stronger and confident then ever. I get all this about dating and flirting.
Sometimes it is not about the WAS but it is some kind of feeling I am attractive, alive. I have been playing "virtual affair" if I may, with RD in this board and sometimes it is not my H in my mind but I smile thinking about the silly stuff RD and I write to each other and all the other folks tease about it.
It's fun, makes you relax, makes you smile and feels good to be alive. It's just a play but makes some moments free of the H pain.
I think that as long I am not hurting anyone, the flirting and dating is pretty natural. Besides, the universe works in strange ways and we never know if the real love of your life will be the next one.
It's nice to see you are having better moments. We all know how hard it is to deal with our sitchs. I found I am having a great deal of pain because rejection. Sometimes I even wonder if I still love my H as much as I think or if the rejection contaminated my soul.
I am totally and example of what does not work, I do not beg, don't cry much, but when my H comes crying and saying how much he loves me, I give in. End up kissing, hugging and in bed with him every time.
I am strong, he comes in many pieces, he gets a lot of love and caring, he leaves very strong, I stay again in many pieces.
Now, I made a big flyer with Sandi's words on it and put it in my big mirror, so every day right in the morning I remind myself that I need to detach, and do it for real.
You are doing it Mozza, and I hope you can gather all the strength to keep a steady journey of making yourself a better person. I believe you are heading on the right direction.
