Devotion To A Dream 3

[phunguy]

Wife called me and talked about her day and out of the blue she said well I just want to thank you. I said why are you thanking me? She well I just realized how nice you've been to me(she's recognizing my anger 180 and PMA) it's like your not even the same Phunguy anymore, it's like I don't understand. What don't you understand I inquired. Why are you so nice? I told her that I realized my mistakes in letting my emotions run amok and that I've worked to understand and control them. She said she has been doing a lot of thinking and even though papers are being prepared she is still thinking that this is the hardest decision she's ever made. She can't believe that she has a good man who loves her very much VH and who is willing to work on forgiving her for her mistakes and yet she's still wanting a divorce. I validated her feelings and told her it's a very big decision and shouldn't be taken lightly and I understand her conflict. She said she admired my dedication to our M and knows she'll never find a man who loves her like me but wants me to find a woman who will love me they way I deserve to be loved. Which of course I know is code for " I'm still in love with OM"

My guess is that today hurt her a bit and reality is possibly beginning to set in. Next week should be interesting as the papers should be ready to be filed and everything will get real with expediency. Well I suppose my plan is to keep the light on and the road home smooth, I suppose I could be slightly deceitful and delay this all for a while.