Alpha - rollercoasting #3

[alpha99]

I'm in the UK. It's bit that it's difficult to pass the test (I did first time), I just never went for it until 2 years ago. Before then was at uni, then work, then met w, lots of holidays, no money or real desire to have a car until we had kids and needed one for family things. W never learnt to drive. She has epilepsy (no fits, just blanks - dangerous for driving I guess).

W has just called again. Meeting her earlier than originally planned. She was quite pleasant on the phone and asked where I wanted to go for tea, said see you in a little bit. Her tone has definitely changed from the last few brief calls, more pleasant and maybe dare I say considerate of me.

Let's see how it goes. I've felt crap missing my kids the last few days but in the last few hours I've felt a lot better. I'm sure I will hold myself together well this evening. Definitely no crying/pleading/threats etc tonight. I feel calm within at the mo .