Rock Bottom at 30

[skr4luv]

Thanks Cadet.
I ordered DB and DR and should be getting it in a week.

I realize I made a long a$$ post so just to summarize our current state: My W has an A with OM and is pretty much in the fog. After telling my family we gonna get D, and I did 180 on her, she wanted to reconcile. But I'm still not convinced because she's still in contact with OM and I still feel she sees him before picking up the kids. At least no more night outs or sleep overs.

She signed up for dance classes, saying since she won't go out clubbing anymore, she needs those classes to stay fit.
While she was at her class last night, I noticed her work Iphone. My oldest son knew the password so I had him open it.
I found some old messages which confirmed yet again another suspicion I had: Mid January, my W had a workshop abroad from Monday to Friday. What put me off is that she said she had to leave Friday, because they needed to get to know the team and they will have a tour around the city before the workshop starts on Monday. The truth is, OM was with her from Friday to Sunday.

Some painful discoveries. I know I can get over these things when she can be the faithful person she was pre A.
But a little voice in me keeps tells me she has gone to far. I keep thinking about the kids and how much better our M can be when we can work this out. I just don't know how much longer I can stay in limbo. This morning I woke up at 4am again and couldn't sleep til my alarm went off for work.