Old Dog seeks new trick 11

[Old Dog]

Yes, crying is part of it but I don't really need to report it do I? I think it's attention seeking. Look at me, I'm suffering and here's the proof. It's fine for a while but to document grieving but to be still saying so nine months later? Maybe that's slipping into passive aggressive behaviour. Make sure everyone knows how I'm hurting to elicit more sympathy. It's what I did the last time and is something WW accused me of doing again.

Does that sound like I'm being too harsh on myself? I'm not sure but what I do know us that I want to stop being passive aggressive and fearful.

I also wish I didn't wake up in the middle of the night running.over everything that has happened over and over again. Gah! That certainly isn't conducive to a PMA.

On a more positive note, S15 is doing well. His pain seems to be more manageable but he's not eating, which is a concern. He's also quite a bit taller and has shot past WW and is approaching my height. I wasn't there when he stood up yesterday as I had to go home for S12, but I should be there tomorrow (later today) when the physio comes round again.