Card29 and lost18, I have not had a chance to listen to your suggested tunes, but I will soon. Thanks for contributing.
Card29, I believe you when you say I will come out of it better and stronger. Definitely stronger. Met with my trainer again today. I'm going to feel today's workout for the next 3 days! But seriously, your words are truly comforting. Just to be reminded that there is a light at the end of the tunnel helps immensely. I really can't see that light right now. At all.
Passover is in about 3 weeks. We always go to my sister's house and the kids look forward to it all year. This year my W does not want to go for obvious reasons (my sister and mother know about the A and are very hurt). My sister still wants us to come - she is even willing to accommodate my W - she loves me and my children more than she hates my W - but my W wants to stay home this year - celebrate without any extended family. My kids are going to ask why we are not going to see their auntie this year and I don't know what to tell them. I am letting my W decide because I don't want her to accuse me of being controlling. If we go without her, she could also blame me for keeping the kids away from their mother on the holiday. Lastly as much as I hate (sorry, but I do - that is not forbidden, is it?) my W right now, the kids should probably be with both parents one last time. So I am putting the decision squarely in her hands. If we don't go, I don't have a good explanation to tell my kids when they ask. I will have to abide by her decision and not blame her so as not to alienate her.
How blind is my W that she cannot see how she has complicated our lives? I hope she loves OM a lot because she has really sacrificed a lot for him *sarcasm intended*.
