Alpha - rollercoasting #3

[alpha99]

Daddylongshanks,

I need a new career for myself. One major thing that my M has allowed to happen is for me to use it as a shield to hide away from going out into the world and making something of myself. I look around at friends who aren't half as clever (not being big headed here at all) and they make far more money. The difference between them and me is that I have always been incredibly shy and reluctant to meet new people. I have been working on this.

The our possessions comment was just a quick way of writing things out. I do see them as ours simply because they are in our house. Upon splitting what is left they will become mine and hers. I have no problem with seeing the remaining things that way.

I know my W has changed forever. She will never be the same person she was before. I don't mind that. She was lacking in confidence, shy, miserable because she had no/very few friends and a poor social life. Apart from her lying, R issues, she has changed in many positive ways herself; more confident, more independent, a stronger and resilient person. If we were to be together at some point in the future I'd have no problem living with her new positive aspects. The lying/cheating/the apparent lack of consideration for my feelings etc would have to change.