I too am afraid of how my divorce will impact my kids, and how I may never find anyone ever again.
I too realize that my WAW does not care if she loses me. That idea of "she must realize that she will lose you forever" just does not seem to work with her. She cannot wait to get rid of me. However, I am making it difficult for her to do that (financially and logistically). Why? Our sitch has only been going on for 6 months and I am praying that if I can slow this down, her A will have ended and she can start being herself again. I don't know, maybe this is a pipe dream, but that is my plan. If it doesn't work, then so be it. I am a great catch too and if she doesn't see it, that's her loss.
The kids and I will manage without her. We deserve better than someone who isn't "here" and is with "another" than her family.