Doing the limbo thing (thread #8)

[shodan]

Starksy, everything that you, Train, Wonka and others have said has been 100% right. The WAS needs to know she will lose the LBS. At times, I know I show that through my actions, and then at other times I do not. In the end, I have been a total wuss about following your advice because I am afraid. I am afraid of what life will be like. I am afraid of how this will impact my kids. I am afraid that I will not meet someone else. I am afraid of what people will say about me. I am afraid, plain and simple. I am afraid that I will have no one. I don't have a large circle of close friends and I am not close with my family. I have focused all of my energy on my W and OUR family. So I cling to this b/c I don't want to recognize it for what it really is. My W is unhappy and I cannot control that. She has been faking for a while for the kids. She deserve better than this as do I.

I need to stop being a wuss and man up. I never thought I would be "starting" over at the age of 40 but I am. But I know there is a light at the end of the tunnel. At least that is what I tell myself.