I don't know what happened. She completely imploded this morning. I haven't been on the receiving end of anger like this in months.
She wants to leave but thinks she can't make it financially. And it's all my fault.
I think it's a combination of two things:
1) Seeing OM again, combined with intentionally holding onto him in her mind (ruminating); and
2) Her "one foot on the platform, the other foot on the train" decision-making has her squarely between both worlds (Rzr and OM), and emotionally it $UCK$ there for her right now.
I had to press my wife -- repeatedly -- to MAKE A DECISION. Because I truly believe that what they say is true about "Love is a decision," and while I would give her six months . . . one year . . . even TWO years . . . for FEELINGS to come back, I wasn't going to give her more than even ONE DAY without making a DECISION about whether or not she wanted to remain married to me, and work at it -- together.
I think your wife believes that Love is basically Limerence -- FEELINGS. And she ain't feelin' it for ol' Rzr yet, and yet she knows being with OM is wrong, and she's STILL -- this far in -- in denial about having to make that decision.
