Thanks for taking the time to visit me. Your words hit the nail. I have been really mixed up and messed up because I keep letting H get into my life over and over again.
I am a very passionate and emotional person. Most of the time it is the "I FEEL" that has been managing my life and Rs with everyone.
Thinking about all this, I also come to realize that it is time I step back and start learning how to deal with people and situations without the feeling but looking into the facts.
It's a big lesson for me, a 180s I would say. But at the end, I am the one that will benefit most from changing my attitude a little bit.
The truth is that with my crazy life and my boys, I do not have time for a H right now. And I want to add my Orthotic classes to it very soon.
My H did a lot of damage to our family till now. He is another person and does not think or care for his kids and much less for me. I need to be strong and put some distance between us and do not allow him to rocky my world anymore.
During the time I was out of the boards, it was hell. My health was pretty debilitated and I went on a hole that was hard to climb back out of it. I did, and I will probably carry the wounds forever, but I have been learning lessons I never tough was possible.
Thanks Jim, I will do my best to get my life straight, my priorities in place and my goals right in front of my eyes so I know where I am going. I know I told you guys before that I would keep myself away from my H and then later tell everyone that I end up in bed with H again.
This needs to stop now, it is time for another season in out lives and this one must be the one H needs to go and do whatever he wants with his life and stop bringing the boys and I into his abysmal destruction.
