Mighty, just wanted to chime in that I have considered you graciousness in the face of an awful situation. You have been battered by all of this mentally and by extent that is something that takes a physical toll. I understand what you mean about the physical response.
You are doing really well but that can be hard to see when you are in the center of the storm. For a long while things were required of you to just get through the day. H's presence required certain coping strategies. Now that some things have happened it is kind of like after a funeral when everyone else has gone back to their lives. You remain but the have to do it list is not required so dealing with the grief takes on a different tone.
Gracious Mighty know that you have been acting from a place of love for your family and your marriage. Embrace that but now is the time to act completely from a place of love for yourself. You of all the people in this situation deserve that love most of all.
M:25 years at BD w/ 2 daughters BD: 5/14 Separated 6/14 - H moved cross country w/OW D Final 9/17
“I can be changed by what happens to me. But I refuse to be reduced by it.” ― Maya Angelou
