Oh F...I see your comments with Mozza about empathy. From reading your sitch, I do wonder if maybe being more empathic and practising more compassion with yourself, would allow you some insight into how to be more empathic to your W. Dear F you remind me of myself, try changing the lenses through which you see yourself, maybe try on some kindness and warmth for you. It will translate to your wife, without you trying. Just a suggestion. I am sending you kindness and warmth, please feel it!