KGirl - letting the past go

[KGirl]

Well. I just spent almost 3 hours w/ STBX at the local cell phone store, getting our plans divided out and me getting a new phone. First time I've seen him since December, I think. Half of the time was just spent sitting around waiting to talk to someone. It was difficult/sad, but also helpful/enlightening.

Difficult/sad parts: we can chit-chat, small talk, etc. with no problem.. I had told myself to not get sucked in but I did anyway. Which is hard because it leads to thoughts like "We get along great! We have so many things we can talk about! Why is this happening?"

Enlightening/helpful: he is still so obsessed with this app/game on his phone (world of war). His best friend who otherwise supports him in everything apparently told him he needed to delete it. He showed me texts and pictures from people within his league or whatever. He has all these "friends" online he's never met. Is this what he really meant when he said he couldn't make friends when he was with me? It seems like he just wanted freedom to spend 24/7 on his phone. Ewww. Certainly not what I want in a partner, I want someone who gets out and does things, tries new things, and isn't glued to a screen. It's really quite sad to me.

I survived the 3 hours without wanting to kill him. The salesperson didn't ask why we were splitting the plans and didn't make a big deal out of it. The only awkward part was when she asked STBX to set up a pin number and he paused and said to me "Well... I don't want you to hear it" so he asked if he could type it into the keyboard instead. Weird. What am I going to do with it, cancel his phone plan? But, we managed, we have our own plans now, I got a new phone. One less thing to deal with.