I am going to set the record straight - I am no saint. Since all of this has happened in September, I have behaved been pretty awfully - especally at first. I begged, pleaded, guilted, yelled at, did everythig I could to stop this juggernaut. This was in the early months and made everything worse.
Now that I am in the 6th month, I have learned the DB principles better and now don't pursure, initiate conversation, am cool and collected in her presence, etc and am following the 180's to the best of my ability. Some days are better than ever. Some days the waves of grief over the loss of my family to this ugliness wash over me. Today was another one of those days.
My WAW also texted and emailed me about 10 times to "mediate" and to hurry because the clock was ticking. She is really aplying the full court press on me. Jeez. My L sends out his missive Friday so hopefully that will reduce my anxiety and she can't hassle me. So I wanted to set that record straight and that I take responsibility for making this situation worse.
