I thought everything was okay....(Part 4)

[MCS]

So..something is happening, I just have no idea what that is.

I think I'm done, but then something pulls me back in. Another weird day of things happening.

First, W and I had a scheduling conflict for the kids for tomorrow. To summarize a conversation over a 3 week time. She sent me a schedule for March, I looked and saw she was switching up the schedule for one day, I didn't want to reply back to cause controversy, we talked about that day and I asked if why she changed that day, she said that it was to keep our days exactly even, we talked about how we shouldn't be doing stuff just to keep the tally even. Caught up? Anyway, we got sidetracked at that point and never resolved who would have the kids that day.

That day is tomorrow (and Friday) I sent her an email today and said that we discussed, but we never resolved that day and I was planning just to use our 'normal' schedule Me Mon-Fri, her Fri-Mon. She replied that I never replied back to her and should have changed it in writing and she was planning on getting them tomorrow.

Well, I sent a long email about how this communication is just not working nor is it fair to the kids. It was long, factual, and passive-aggressive (W, as we discussed, if you want the kids tomorrow to keep the days 'even,' I'm fine with that.) I knew the last piece was a little below the belt, but I was at the point that I didn't care.

So, she replied back that she wasn't going to debate for this week over email and we could use our 'normal schedule,' but her reasoning for wanting that day was because she missed them and hasn't seen them.

I replied back that I agree their normal schedule is best and then said "As I've offered before, if you'd like to call or take them out for dinner, etc. I'm perfectly fine with that"

No response back, but its the first time she's backed down without throwing out accusations. IDK

Then, I got a text from SIL that W knows she talked to me, if you remember; I called SIL the other weekend after W said no one cares for her and that everyone treats her like 'poop.' I was and still am worried about W's emotional state.

SIL said she and I are good; but wanted to give me a heads-up. She said W is angry about "work, life, she doesn't know" and its upsetting SIL how W is texting her. SIL said that she told W that she's going to answer her phone regardless of W's instructions to her. I said that I just don't know what to do and I was worried about W and said, just be there for her. She said she's fine with me, but she's just getting pushed away from W.

So, I'm really worried about W, but I find she throws stuff at me when I'm around that is so accusatory and then I just get upset/angry because of what she says. I want to be there for her, but she's saying stuff that's just not true about how 'I' feel about her.

As I said yesterday, everyone is just telling me to take a break. I think that's what I need to do, but I just feel like I'm leaving W at one of the lowest points since BD. I guess I'm fine with that in most circumstances, if I wasn't worried about her so much emotionally.

I want to take a break from MC because its just slinging stuff my way, but I also think that's why she's doing it, so I give up.

I'm just lost right now......