remnants of pain every now and then

[forward]

Despite the fact that I have a completely new and good life and many years have passed, every now and then something pops up that reminds me of that day X left, and the subsequent pain.

Today I learned that X's mother is terminal. I had loved her and I am saddened and also rather amazed by this news; she is such a tough person.

It brought back a reminder of how they took OW and X out to dinner, leaving me behind alone with DD, and how sad and alone I felt then. I finally told her that I did not want to go to dinner with her and former FIL, the next night, because it was awkward and uncomfortable for me as I felt they were supporitng OW by taking her out to the nicest places around, and while I was sorry she was in that position, it was very uncomfortable for me. And with that, I never really spoke to MIL again (her choice). She was nice to me the last time I saw her, and seemed enthusiastic about DD going to visit, though.

That was 8 years ago.

I don't know if she would want to hear from me. I assumed not, as I do not contact her and she never contacted me, not even in regards to DD.

I did love them and losing them was another part of the pain.