We told the kids last night. They didn't seem to think it was a huge a deal. I didn't think they would. Their only concern was the dogs and their stuff. I'm sure more questions will come. Tonight will be the first night w/o W and the kids will be with just me. A situation none of us are used to.
I'm second guessing myself for asking her to leave the house for breaking the boundaries. She did express concern because of the driving she'll have to do, but before I could say anything she said that was actually looking forward to spending more time with her mom. Plus, she get's to carry on with OM while I'm at home getting two small children to sleep solo. Then I have to hope that she shows up before 7 AM so I can get S to school and she can watch D. My plan is to keep the kids busy doing so much fun stuff they won't even notice mom's not here.
I don't think anything has changed with the A. It has only come up a few times. Once when discussing what to say to the kids. I told her I would not lie if they asked me (I know they won't ask anytime soon). She got a little upset and said she was sorry she has "feelings" for someone else. Then again this morning when she knocked her purse off the couch and the letter from OM fell out. Her only comment was that she forgot she had it and will leave it at her mom's house. I told her I would be more than happy to dispose of it.
Obviously, trying to 180 from the detached person I was has not been successful in winning her back. I keep reading Sandi's post and realize it's not at all about winning her back. It's about letting her go. I'm afraid detaching now will make her think that I have reverted back to my old ways. This time it's not about her, I'm detaching to move on and not feel so dependent on her for my happiness.
GAL has slowly improved, but it's going to be more difficult now that I need to be home at a reasonable time for her to head back to her mom's. The boxing classes I want to start taking are over pretty late on Tuesday and Thursday nights.
M:42 W:43 T:14 M:10 S:9 D:5 W filed 12/22/14 EA 12/31/14 PA 4/10/15 D final 5/13/15
