newcomer now receives mail in Hell

[bravo61]

Hey folks been a couple of weeks. Just a short update.

Been keeping my space from X, not texting or talking really. I have noticed 3 straight weeks daycare has sent an email bout late payments. S after school care hasn't been paid in a while. Not my problem! I haven't mentioned it to her. She brought the kids over early a couple of times so she could get to work (funny how she doesn't need me, until she does). It's fine if I don't have something else going on & I NEVER rub it in her face. She brought them over Sun & I met them at the door & didn't invite her in. Held my D while X piped up about wanting to get together to discuss schedule (pick up for upcoming GAL trip ). I asked her what she was confused about (we already came to agreement previously) & restated the plan. She said ok & reached out & rubbed my arm and said enjoy my days. I wasn't rude just pleasant but dismissive.

Today dropped off D & she immediately asked me in to "get the mail". She also wanted me to see D' s New bed (they r moving into a townhouse later this month). She told me bout a job I interview she has tomorrow. Just told her I was sure she'd do great. Then she asked if I was mad at her cause I've been different lately. I asked if I had been rude or mean to which she said no. I thanked her for asking instead of just making assumptions. I told her I wasn't mad just have a lot of things going on. Told her she could keep the kids on Sat nite (as opposed to me picking them up to stay w/me for early departure next morning). She said thanks cause she will miss them. Makes it harder on me but the right thing to do. All interactions have definitely bee like a neighbor Kept a small smile. Haven't indicated a want for physical contact. Is this the push/pull? Whatever it is it changes nothing for me.

GAL update: taking the kids out of the country for their 1st time. They are stoked! We'll even be riding a ferry to get there.

A babysitter that I like that X uses has told me she still has hopes for us. Apparently the kids trust their feelings more w/her than the X. She said that she is amazed at the kind of father I am. I just told her thank you for being a safe haven for the kids.