It's been over a week so I thought I'd post an update.
The first court appearance for the restraining order was last week. It was only extended for a few weeks. The court appearance for the battery charges are coming up as well. I should also apologize for my poor reading comprehension. The only court dates so far are for the battery/restraining order. So my questions regarding court are only about those cases. No one has filed for D yet. I did find an attorney that I will retain when that time comes though.
As far as where I am at mentally/emotionally: I am getting to the point where I am letting her go. I'm no longer concerned about how she will react to what I do. And I don't agonize or analyze her actions either.
Physically speaking, my weight is still down but I am eating much better now. I'd like to gain another 15 pounds or so. But I am still exercising and going to boxing class. I am still running too. I'm up to 4 miles at a 9 min/mile pace, so that is good.
I did close all joint credit cards we share and I gave her a months' heads up that we will be switching to separate cell phone plans (thanks, sandi2). We are going to set up a time this weekend to figure out how we will handle the bills moving forward as well.
This morning we had another conversation. She said that she didn't understand how I was doing this to her (the battery charges). She said that she "stood by me" for all these years with all of my issues and didn't think it was fair for me to not stand by her now. I almost laughed. I just told her that she is NOT standing by me and I am doing what is best to protect myself and my kids.
Then the big one came: "So do you want me to stay?" My response: "I don't know after all this." And left it at that.
I started reading DR. But to be honest, I just don't know if I have it in me anymore. Or at least applying some of the strategies to my current sitch. Maybe I will finish it and continue to work on me for my next relationship.
