(((RPP))) You know, I would absolutely tell Husband how you feel about the vacation thing. I think its OK when something goes above and beyond a certain pain threshold to call BS and break the NC and just simply say "Hey, this really hurts because of X and Y". Plainly put and as honestly as possible, then leave it. Just my opinion, anyway.
"I notice that I'm not saying how much I love H, how much I miss *him*. And I feel a little guilty about that. Would I take H back just to get those things? Wouldn't that be just as selfish of me as he's being?
No, from my perspective and from a biblical perspective, no this does not make you selfish. At least not selfish in a worldly sense. You don't have to "feel" the emotion or say that you love him. All the things you would be willing to take him back over that you listed above are love. Honey, I support you in whatever you choose to do, EXCEPT I will not support you in beating yourself up over normal feelings any wife should have if she found herself in your situation.
Do something nice for yourself today but also allow yourself to have normal emotions without labeling yourself as selfish.
On the no contact thing, my wife said that was the part that drove her completely nuts, so it works. I hate it to, but it does work.
Me 47 - W 35 M 9 - T 10 2 Daughters - 7 & 9 Discovery of EA- 8/4/14 S - 8/5/15 D mentioned - 9/11/14 R & Piecing - 3/17/15 Regard one another as more important than yourselves. - Philippians 2:3
