Part 16 - edz, just edz

[edz]

Hi Rd

Oh believe me any time she stops and thinks "Hey, Edz may like to see this" gives me a little PMA boost it's keeping it in check with the expectations thats difficult!

I was sitting in the garage freezing this morning (car garage not my garage, I dont have a garage, how did I get onto Garages?) and started to feel down about it all. Stupidly it was because last time I was there was having an MOT was dec 13 with "our" car. Ridiculous what makes you go into a spiral, worse w's favourite pop song came on the radio. It was one of those "oh, come on!" kind of moments.

Everyones comments came to me though and I told myself no, moving onwards we'll see what happens. Got me through it. Then the car passed (was convinced it would fail) and I had to get back to get on with work.

I'm coming around to feeling ok again about the future whether thats with w or not (I hope for with but its not entirely my call and I have to accept that) meantime thinking about ok what do i want to do. Will be sorting out my passport soon (as soon as I get driving license back with new address - for various overcomplex governmental department reasons for our US buddies) then will make sure with our without w I'll get away for a few days this summer, first holiday I'll have taken in 7 years that wasnt for household reasons but purely for vacation.

Lots of little plans im thinking of, they probably seem silly to non db'ers but I've always squashed what I wanted for everyone else and Im dusting some ideas off to see if they still shine or if they need decluttering (much like the office im in right now!)

Anyway busy, work to finish off, chilli to get on to cook down then off to the shops

Thanks all.