Hi Pink. Of course you don't want to let go , you love him Just because you H is too stupid to realise what he is giving up that doesn't stop you remembering all the closeness and love that you shared with him. He's the father of your kids and was your best friend. Also the recent affection from him would only confuse you and make it harder to detach.
Pink , you are worth so much more than how your H is behaving Your sadness, disappointed and hurt are all turning to anger and that's nomal. If you can step back from your sitch and try to look at it from an outside perspective. Your H is with OW He is obviously unsure and some part of him can see what he is doing but he can't or won't stop. He is keeping OW but also wants Pink. For me Pink needs to keep on DBing , living her life as Pink wants and leave the rest to the universe. Pink will be happy again This is a journey and its a long way from over. Pink will decide when it's over
As regards the pillion on my bike. You are always welcome The support you and some other r the other ladies on this forum have given me has been fantastic and I value it very highly. While you were absent from the board your kind words and support were missed.
Pink needs and deserves love and loyalty and she will have it again , either from H or someone new.