Yes I feel pretty calm actually. I think it helped me to know that this may not be crunch time, and that the outcome of recent stuff may well be 'maybe.' No problem. I think I'll find it more difficult if we do go down the D route right now though.
Whilst H wants to rid himself of these things (me, the house etc.) that are holding him back from 'getting his life on track,' I hope we can just formally S for now. So, if that's what he comes back with and we don't commence D, I'll be pretty pleased with that.
My concern is that I don't sense any great change in his attitude. Things certainly don't seem to be panning out with OW. The picture has very much been him chasing and asking her to break things off with her chap (doing all the wrong stuff - if only he knew!) But she has never fully broken things off. I'm not sure at what point - if ever - H will realise that she doesn't 'do' healthy R's right now...
I worry that he may always see her as the lost love of his life....ugh...
Anyway, whilst he's relatively nice to me, he's still flailing about, feeling he has to 'sort his life out.' And he seems on a pretty short fuse. Doesn't take much for him to get tetchy. Not sure that there's much introspective work going on there. And I very much get that sense - as Starsky said - I'm sooooooo unhappy, and I don't know what to doooo. But there are one or two little chinks of light at times too..so who knows..Main thing is I'm doing reasonably okay regardless.
Anyway, working from home for me today. Will get out into town or something at lunch time. Then I have yoga GAL tonight. Have a good day all!
Last edited by Toots; 03/18/1507:41 AM.
T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus
