Alpha - rollercoasting #3

[alpha99]

Thanks Complex. Yes, I do feel a lot better, still not great, but as I wrote previously I think for the first time in a major potential disaster moment I handled things well. I was pleasant, appeared happy, calm, content, and not emotional. It is sickening having children involved. I have been such a devoted father that not being able to put them to bed, wake them up, read stories and Olay games as I've done pretty much every day of their lives is heartbreaking. This is not a permanent situation though. Even W agrees with that. Somewhere down the track I will be able to do all those things. I now I can cope with this. As things proceed further along in this process I'm realising any faint hope if it all magically working out in an instant has gone and been replaced by the understanding that thus really is going to be a long hard slog. I am strapped in for the ride now.