No problem with the exchange. The two perspectives help me out. I definitely tend to agree with PM, but I understand Mozza's perspective also.
I've had MC today and it was well....interesting. I think I may be done. The constant lies, deception and all the drama is causing me to just get angry. I Feel like W's emotional state has MC nervous (she stopped going twice) about any conflict and states it that way. I feel W is not honest and just says thing that she knows will get me angry or what he wants to hear and then does the complete opposite outside of MC.
I'm thinking about taking a break, but scared that it will give W excuse that I left and also if I leave that I'm not going to be able to hold on any of the feelings of compassion and/or love I have for her.
I see she's struggling, she no longer tells me she's fine/happy/content, but now blames her leaving on me and not that she wanted to do her own thing like she did earlier.
I fear that it feels like W is opening to me emotionally which is a first since BD, but it seems misguided to protect herself. I think she's realized her 'plan of happiness' has not worked out, but hasn't done any introspective work on herself to realize that the reason she left was just selfish, instead pushing the blame back to me (with the 4th or 5th different reason.
I just feel I can't emotionally hold on still that is healthy for me. Any thoughts?
M:36 W:37 T: 15 M:11 S6 D5 BD: 8/10/14 IDLY: 8/12/14 S: 8/13/14 (she left, I stayed w/ kids) D Mentioned: 10/15/14 Confronted about OM: 10/15/14 EA: ~4/13 PA: ~10/13 She filed: 8/15 (not final)
