Mc recommended that the roommate is present tonight when we talk and he's sgreed. He heard what happened.
Except H has gone out. That's inconvenient, I'd got my courage up.
Was going to tell him that I do not wish to live in a hostile environment; there is no excuse for what he did. And see how he wishes to handle. If he equivocates or tries to shift the blame or do much of anything other than sign up for some serious intensive anger management/violence coursework - I will tell him I wish to go our separate ways.
I am losing courage and becoming sentimental - it's like feeling blood drain out of me. It feels like part of a grand design to keep silly people like me making more excuses.
My roommate just looked at me asking when the last time was going to be the last and how many chances I wNted to give him on these points. Susana was right, I can't claim it was a one time thing, it's an escalation of tactics.
This seems to be a very anti dB attitude. I know he has thoughts and feeling that make sense to him. I just don't want to continue to be run down by them. Even roomie rolled his eyes at the shouting he heard - what was all that about how you don't care about him? Guy just loves to be the victim even as he's destroying your things.
Mid 30's Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH D 9/15; NC forever on
