Originally Posted By: uRworthy
Hi Luke. Often when the MLCer is getting what they think they want, it sometimes causes them to have a little doubt about it.

So, who knows why she is being nice? I wouldnt read anything into it because it could change on a dime.

You just keep doing what you are doing...


uR you may be right.

This morning while dropping off S, she greets me at the door. Asked how I was ... I told her I was good, S and I had a nice night, I asked how she was ... eyes to the floor and she just shook her head. She came close for a hug and told me a number of things:

"What have I done"
"I'm so sorry I hurt you"
"I hate my life"
"I'm so confused"

I just stfu and listened for the most part. She did ask me something concerning her hurting me, I told her I know I have hurt her too ... then she said something about never being able to go back to that marriage ... I quickly let her know that the old M, the old me, the old her were all dead. And to be honest I would never go back to that M either. She started to say something then stopped, I looked at her and asked what it was, hoping she would share. She told me she was scared of the chance I would become angry again (Back in the early MLC I was very frustrated, that and add in losing my father, there was a time I was not the best happy person to be around) ... I validated and told her she had a right to have that concern ... Then she said she wanted to do things as a family, implying that I did'nt ... I told her I would love to do that but we would have to start new.

All this is basically PMS talk (See tracking these helps I tell ya) ... she was just down, now sure I could get hopes up and think there is a chance but I know better. I do know that things have been better between us and for now I'll take that. If this place has taught me anything its just to sit there and wait, patience, no pressure, no expectations.

The move is rapidly approaching, I need to get the moving truck lined up, take that day off, get my things in order ... I was stressing about $$ last night and I realized I have some coming in next week, plus I have a stove in the container I need to sell ... I have a little nest egg saved but ya never know about all those hidden expenses.

Wearing green ... Happy St Pats (Last year I spent this day in the Dr office with the wife as they were doing STD screenings ... yeah ... far better off this year.)


M: 48
W: 47
M16 T26-S8
BD Sept13