Alpha and WAW - part 2

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After yesterday's fireworks, a quiet day today (for now). NC with kids today bit W has texted twice in response to my asking about S. She sent two, two word replies, so very frosty then. At least she replied. No more contact until she gets in.touch with me.

I've been re-reading DR again. It's making more sense each time as things get ever more real for me. I have to, have to, have to follow the book. No more deviating of just plain old begging/pleading EVER.

I think I've put myself back a good three weeks because of yesterday. I will have to tread carefully from now on. I am coming to understand the full meaning of detachment and understand it is so hard to do. I need to though. I'm going to up my social activities to keep busy, GAL, and not dwell so much on things. I know *this* situation right now ain't forever. My children will ALWAYS love me. I will only ever show them love.