Met my H for lunch yesterday. It was kinda up and down. He knew how to push my buttons and when he saw that he pushed a button, he called me out on it. I just took a deep breathe and slowly exhale.
When we parted, he hugged me and quickly gave me a kiss on the lips.
I feel so lost. A big part of me wants to call it quits and move on because there is so much pain and hurt from this marriage. I wonder if I will ever trust him again. I can't live the rest of my life jumping every time his phone goes off. Will there always be a another female in this marriage.
I have decided to join a divorce and recovery support group. It's not just for divorced people, it is also for separated people as well. Maybe this will help me to decide.
