Part 16 - edz, just edz

[edz]

Evening all

Well the movie thing looks interesting. Still a while before it starts looks like summer but may be fun although a frightening number of neckbeards apparent!

Anyway also done the shopping made a chicken curry and eaten it and now relaxing.

Thanks for the posts all. I'm not as frantic as I sound quite relaxed this evening and I know why, haven't had contact today so calming down again and back into my regime albeit with new slightly scary peeps this evening!

Yes w's decision is w's decision I can't do more. I'll just let her be unless she pings me now. PMA boost as I got over my fear of photos and posted one on Facebook this weekend, people I know in other areas of the UK who haven't seen me in a while (12 months) posting nice things helps esp as I'm a lot thinner and better kempt now.

I know the issue it came up in counselling, as a child I was caregiver to gparents, then mother, then work then mother fighting cancer then some failed relationships then w and s and now 16 years later..errr oookk what now, its difficult to remember who I was or indeed want to be, I'm trying lots to sort for an introvert its a tall order!

I feel better guys, thanks for the help today.