I love her still. I'll love her until the day I die. It hurt to be around her and not hold her hand, to sit next to her without putting my arm around her. I thought that I could bury it all deep down but it was apparent to me the whole day. After I dropped her off at her car (it was snowing hard) - she got out and we said goodbye. When I was safely out of sight - I cried. I haven't been able to cry for nearly two months but it all came out today.
Aouch. Poor lnlyshp. I know what you mean. I saw WAW for 2 minutes last week and it took me three days and lots of GAL to recover. I'm impressed you've been able to hold it in for two months. I was not a crier before the S and now it's daily. Did you feel better afterwards?
Originally Posted By: lnlyshp
It's tough to admit but I really just miss physical contact. I want to be held. I know that's not a masculine thing to admit - but that's just what I feel today.
What definition of masculinity does this come from? Men are known for craving physical contact. It's not just sex, it's all the cuddling and even the bro-ing and hugging and back-patting and even contact sports. Don't be ashamed one bit for it. I'm 39, a father and businessman and yet I ask my mom to hold me every time I see her since the S. And I cry. And anyway, what if you were the only man who wants to be held? Just be yourself, no shame. This would be a great show of maturity and you're already miles ahead of anyone your age. It will greatly help you in the future to just recognize and express your needs.
I second ALL of this!! Exactly how I feel.
Me:33 W:34 T:13 M:8.5 D mentioned & S 2/13/15 "We can never get back together" 4/2/15 Visited & Mentioned she hasn't filed 4/20/15 "I want to have cats back" 5/4/15 Served D papers 5/8/15