Thanks Mozza for reading and posting on my situation. I really appreciate it.
I want to get out there that I am not an angry person - and now everyone seems to think I am. My WAW ia far angrier than I. She routinely throws things, ss doors, yells etc on a regular basis. she has admitted to bullying me to do things that I did not want to do ( volunteer more as an example).
So again - I am not an angry person by nature. I have gotten angry once or twice during our relationship both times when she was cheating one (ea and pa). I could have handled those times differently yes I admit that but again 99% of the time I am not an angry person or even intense.
My WAW has told me and others that I an angry and mean person to justify her behaviors. It does feel that she manipulates me and the truth to suit her needs.
It feels like she plays me and goads me into negative behaviors and that I regret. I have consistently worked on my issues over the past 19 Years while she does nothing for her own issues. That makeshift sad and upset like I do all the work in the marriage . I have tried to get her into counselling for years but nothing ever comes from it. I have given up trying.
I can assure you I am not a tyrant but someone who works very hard to be successful and to provide for my wife and family.
I hope this week gives me structure that I need to function better.
