Lunch/Coffee time... I still have made no moves on this front. I realize it is needed there is many co-parenting issues we could talk about.
Texts... Have slowed down for the moment. However we did have a correspondence last night. She texted me, I kept it going and kept it light, then shut it down with a "have a good Monday. Good night."
GAL... My GAL is good. I'm going out, going skiing, going kayaking. Working out has suffered due to kayaking and skiing but it is still 2 to 3 times a week. At 32 my body is probably in the best shape it's ever been and my mind is sharp but cluttered with items related to her. I'm also making an effort to see my sisters kids more. I am their fun uncle. And more importantly, I'm a better dad. Capable of providing nurture, fun, imagination and discipline for my munchkins. On the negative side I have binge watched some TV shows, don't sleep all that well, and really struggle in the mornings I don't have the kids.
The Clutter... The clutter for me is the things that are always on my mind. I enjoy sports like kayaking and skiing because they get me outside of my mind and into the moment. However my mind focuses on questions. Why are there so many things left unsaid? Why did she believe her premises? Why did I not see any of this sooner? Why did she believe it was not possible to reconcile? And millions more. My engineer brain also tries to rationalize/analyze all previous interactions and current interactions.
This clutter is how I know I am not truly detached. I have no relationship with her to speak of, we rarely talk, but I know that if we were to talk more she wouldn't be talking to someone who was truly detached. Perhaps this is why I haven't moved forward with the lunch idea.
Me: 32 W: 29 T:8 M: 6 D4 S2 M - 8/2008 W is not happy - 1/2014 W wants D - 9/2014 W moved out - 11/2014 D filed - 1/23/2015 D'ed - 2/25/2015 Gave X the Letter - 11/10/2015
