Maybell XXXII

[Zues126]

I was thinking about my last post. One thing that has bothered me is when people try to "find the positives" in the situation, or talk about how I will find love again, etc.

After thinking about it, I feel like my wife was murdered. And I feel like my WAW was the killer.

Maybe that is a better way to explain how I feel about her. And maybe that is a better way to feel explain about how I feel about the situation.

You wouldn't tell someone who's wife got murdered that "they deserved better", or "good things were around the corner". You'd acknowledge that there are things so terrible they shouldn't happen in the world, and it will never be ok. That while life goes on and must be celebrated, it will always be a loss so horrible it will change the survivor's life forever.

And you wouldn't expect someone to just "get over it" and not be emotionally impacted by the person that pulled the trigger. While it is noble to aspire to forgiveness, some things are so horrible they are unforgivable. The only reason that destroying a family should be forgiven is that forgiveness is a gift to the forgiver.

That's how strongly I feel about this. Maybe I'm dramatic. But maybe if more people put a similar value on M we wouldn't need these forums...