Need Help 2

[errod]

Well D14 has really opened up to me today. She told me W told her that she has had hated me since July and once she is finished with someone it is forever.

D14 told me I have taken to much abuse from W the past 8 months and she does not understand why I would even want her back at this point. She said with what W put me through she would not be mad at me for moving on at all. But because W went and asked the attorney if it there was anything she could lose by dating and attorney told her it was ok, she would hate her for doing it.

I told D14 that I made a mistake 10 years ago and had an EA and wife took me back and never brought it up again. It was when we separated due to her not paying me any attention her freshman year of dental school. I only had the EA for 2 weeks and realized how much nobody could replace what I had with my W. So I earned a second chance after 6 weeks and have never even looked at another women. I was always honest though I told her I was talking to someone who she was and everything. I never tried to lie about it.

Now this weekend was the Home Show at the mall and W and D14 went yesterday to walk around. D14 told me W kept waving to people and she was getting ignored. So D14 said W looked upset and wanted to leave. W then said something to D14 in the car and D14 said to her you do know they are all daddy's friends and they are going to side with him. She looked sad then.

With everything I found out today I may just hang low and see what happens. I know I only have so long until the D will be final but in the meantime if I just go on with life she may see what she had before wasn't that bad. But at the same time I am going to protect myself and make sure I get what I am entitled to and not let her manipulate me.

I for the life of me can't see how long a 52 year old man could keep a 36 year old woman happy. Especially since she doesn't need to use him for money or anything. He has kids closer to her age. When I looked at his facebook the only thing they have in common is running so they will have to get bored of each other quickly. He just isn't me right now so that is all she sees.

This may actually give me the wake up call I need, because right now even though my heart still loves her, my brain hates her. So it will be easier to watch her struggle and not go running and chasing every chance I get.