If you are dependent on this R, for whatever reason, she has you in a vise. You cannot be dependent on her, do you understand? A man has nothing to use as consequences if he's totally dependent on her and the relationship. You think telling her you will go job hunting is a consequence to her A?!?
The last part is really wacky, SP! Do you now see this?
Also do you realize that being unemployed lowers the respect for you in W's eyes? If not, then get busy and look for a job NOW. That should be a high priority for you.
