I have been stressing a bit more since Friday night. My GAL plans feel through Saturday and I've had waaay too much time to think. It's dangerous for me to think.

W wants to stay at the house tonight because spring break is over and school starts tomorrow. The kiddos are going to be tough to get up and ready for school. I told her I had no problem getting them ready, but she said she wanted to stay and pulled the "my name is on the mortgage to" card (she pays zero towards it). Figured it was a "pick your battle moment".

We going to tell the kids tonight. She wants to make it sound like it's a mutual decision. I feel like we're just lying to them. I think I will tell her we need to keep it general, not mention anything about who wants to divorce. Just let them know they will be safe, protected, and taken care. We're just living in different places.

I can't get the letter her OM sent her out of my head. He said he would be the best step dad to her kids (MY KIDS!). She said it was one-sided and that she had no plans to get married. I don't believe a word she says.

I'm stressing pretty hard. I want to talk to her about her plans and her plans for the kids, but I don't see the point if she won't tell the truth.


M:42 W:43
T:14 M:10
S:9 D:5
W filed 12/22/14
EA 12/31/14
PA 4/10/15
D final 5/13/15