TLEE86. Part III

[TLEE86]

C!!!! Man I missed you. There were so many times the past few weeks when I was like I wish I could talk to C. Ive been wondering about you and whats going on...but I can understand that you don't want to put certain things out on blast in a public forum. Question...is it against the rules to share like FB or emails...because...yea....i think wed have a few conversations, though probably rather angry ones

I've been skimming Sandi's LBH post and the general sense that I get is that the WAW has to experience something earth shattering or something to that extent to wake up and consider returning. I don't think she has that.

Yea I've been reading Sandis LBH post as well. Very insightful. I agree with everything. Have you read Pinks latest post? She served her H with D papers, and all of a sudden he's telling her how much he loves her...very very weird logic how this all works...

So, for real, you're funding her still? I thought you were going to quit?

No, I STOPPED last month in February. And I was surprised at how well she took it. Now this month, I had a feeling she was going to ask...and of course she does. This is what sparked the argument today. Because she was asking for $ and I said no.

No, she's not "[censored] DUMB" - she's merely sticking to her expectations from you as her husband. The husband who has been giving her money and providing her support while she finds herself. Sorry, but she's expecting you to follow through on a situation you helped create and maintain.

Ive thought about this before you posted it, for a long time now. Here is what I have come up with, everyone please feel free to call BS on it. I know my W, better than anyone. She would have severely resented and hated me if i cut her off completely from the get go. Now that she has 1. acknowledged she had faults in the marriage 2. actually wants to talk and 3. realized that life [censored] on the other side, I am slowly weening her off and now that we are "friends" its more of a...gentle let down versus a..hey [censored] YOU you left me, YOUR ON YOUR OWN? Idk if this makes sense, but basically, she wont resent me for it now because she has calmed down a lot since BD. idk?

Ahhhhh she's off the pedestal now. (And yes, I acknowledge that I am being a bitch with the statement.) Really, are you mad about the money? Or are you mad that she hasn't sorted her self out and come back home? Cause from over here? It sounds like you're lashing out because a) you're stressed b) you're hurt and c) your ego is bruised.

....all of the above.... =( this actually made me really hurt. because its true...

Hey - hopefully you won't top my two recent anniversary stories. My H screamed at me on our wedding anniversary - telling me to shut the [censored] up for once in my life so he could figure out if he could love me again. And then last month, on our 10 year dating anniversary - I think I got a, "I don't know how to acknowledge today."

...you and I need to talk offline..seriously. I am sorry your [censored] H said that to you. Im angry just reading it. But don't worry, Im going to [censored] WOO-SAH (rubbing ears) because this is my 180, to not be angry Tim anymore, well at least learn to control it. Don't worry, I don't think she will even acknowledge or text me that day. Oh look, its in 3 [censored] days.

*confetti throwing in the air*

I LOL'd for a long time at this. Im still chuckling. You are awesome. "Awesome sauce...."

And NO, for the record, i didnt say I was getting out of the Army, OM is getting out of the Army next month so I know $ is tight. He doesn't make [censored] as it is so I'm sure him getting out is making their $ problems worse. Me getting out...conversation for a different day. not sure yet...idk.
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I don't want a D. But deep down, i know that today had to happen. That sooner or later she was going to ask me for $ and I would have to say no. And Im glad i did it. Because quite honestly, it doesn't make any sense to fund her adventures.

Seriously, can we talk offline?