He has a new reason to hate me and validate what he thinks of me. It is amazing how he plays the victim. According to him EVERYONE knows what a horrible person I am.
He's an alcoholic and an abuser. You're going to take HIS word for it? You've been a responsible spouse and mother, owned your own weaknesses, and tried to work on the marriage. You get a gold star. Just let any of his criticisms now roll of your back. This didn't happen because of anything you did or didn't do. It happened because of HIS issues.
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missing the person he used to be. The one who vehemently denies ever loving me.
You know this is not true, it's just his justification for his affair.
Let it go. You can have peace in your heart that you tried to save your marriage. You will be much healthier out of this abusive situation. Get an attorney and file for child support asap. Call the cops if he does anything threatening, in case you need to get a restraining order.
I know this feels awful, but it will get better - much better.
