One last thing is she tells me lies and then gets mad at me. For example Thursday night she told me how tired she was and she was taking a bath and then going to bed. I sent her a text at 9:00 pertaining to our D14. I never brought up her not responding to my text. Well then today when yelling at me she says and you send texts at certain times to make sure I am home. I said we aren't together so why do you have to lie to me. Why can't you just say your going out. It's not like I can stop you. But honesty is very important.
Just from reading this it seems you either 1. did send the text to see if she was there, or 2. sent it but reacted to her acquisitions in a way that still shows you wanted to know.
Either way you are still trying to control her, even if you don't realize it and its very obvious to her. Why tell her she doesn't have to lie to you? Why tell her she can tell you shes going out? You don't need to know if shes going out, not in her mind. You shouldn't be telling her what she can/cant do or think. To her it just appears your still trying to keep some control.
I haven't read through all of your thread, just some but I've noticed a couple instances that appear this way. You might want to speak much less and think about what your saying before you say it. Many times we don't even realize when were pursuing/controlling, but its noticed by the W.
You also really need to work on not telling her you love her, care for her, or anything resembling the above. At this point she doesn't care your feelings toward her, and the sooner you realize that the better off you will be. It's a difficult thing to get in your head, but its really what you need to realize. That doesn't mean she will never care, just not right now. You know you love her, she knows you love her, stop saying it.
Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be
