[susana4]

Well, I've sent that and f*** the last line, I've got a busy busy life to live and need to make plans.

I've calmed down a little now, but I am still kind of upset. I know in the grand scheme of things this is not a big deal, and nothing compared to what many people deal with on these boards. I think I've just perhaps hit a limit. Two weekends ago he was away with his uni friends, last weekend he was on his ski trip, now this weekend he's gone to his family's, next weekend I'm probably away (though he doesn't know this yet) and weekend after he's visiting his great aunty. One of the things my DB coach and I spoke about was us not spending time together at the weekend, she said i'd been really patient but she suggested I invite him to do something one weekend. Just feeling a little frustrated because it seems like I'll never have a chance!

It was a problem in our M because he *never* went away for the weekend, and resented me for it, except I didn't realise... Apparently early in our R he said he would like to spend one weekend away per month (with his family or visiting friends) and I said I thought that was too much. I don't really remember this conversation but apparently it stopped him doing it more. Now, I actually think one weekend's reasonable. But this seems like every weekend! It makes me feel like even though he seems to be moving closer, he isn't actually. And I know I'm borrowing trouble from the future here, but this isn't sustainable and I don't see how we could ever work things out (if that were to be a possibility) if he's going to spend every weekend away.