H went for a day trip today to meet his dad and stepmum for her birthday. He was supposed to come back around now.
We hadn't planned anything but I was thinking of seeing if he wanted to get takeaway and watch a movie. Expectations getting me again.
He just texted me to say he's not coming back --
"Sooo...after a few beers I have decided to stay down in XX this weekend with my family. I'll be up Sunday evening. Sorry to mess you up."
I'm trying to remain calm but I'm kind of upset. I'm not just upset about my expectations although that plays into it. But also because even though he's been drawing closer I feel like he's never around at the weekend and I feel like he's avoiding me.
I know I can't react because it would just repeat all our old patterns and would invalidate my 180. But I'm having trouble not being upset
Me 28 / H 28 M 1 / T 2.5 BOMB 12-3-14 "I don't feel like myself any more" Still living together, separate rooms.
