Complex No. 6 - The turtle and the rabbit

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In the end I actually said sth like I'm sorry you can't see the person I was when we got married. She replied: it wasn't right in the first place. We can continue and be miserable for ever. Me: happiness comes within yourself. W: I am happy with myself. But a R doesnt make just living together wearing rings. Me: you are right, you 'make' it.....W leaves frustrated.

She's on her way to her friend (the enabler) helping her moving 50 miles away...good thing, I bet she'll make her feel better, that stupid D'd btch.

I wonder how well/not so well I did in all this today. I shouldn't have gotten into the discussion too much but if I don't say much she thinks I'm in denial which frustrates her even more. She actually still thinks I am. I made some strong boundary statements today tho. So at least that was ok. But in general W still doesn't seem to believe what I say OR do and strictly follows her own script

She also told me there's NC to OM, which I believe her bc it syncs with all recent action.

I still believe in it. But I wonder if I should just let her go and be done with this. It's so sad. I still believe in her being better than this but she keeps proving me wrong first time in weeks I'm crying. Looks like I still had some expectations deep down