Isn't that the truth? I wasn't so sure when we met up with the attorneys outside the courtroom. The partner told us, "Well, looks like the judge is in a good mood. That's a new one." Mr. Wonderful and I just looked at him and he continued, "Can't tell you how many times I've been in his courtroom and he's been nasty to the families and sometimes not willing to hear reason." We were all pleasantly surprised!
Upward and onward. I have some major stuff to do at home. The baseboards are going in on Tuesday, and since I'm now repurposing D21's room into a guest/multipurpose room, I have some things to figure out in my old office, where I'm moving her stuff. Oh yeah, I haven't told her either. Anyway, I'm having some coffee now before I figure out where to begin.
On an interesting note, I went down to the Celebration Fair here last night. It's a spiritual gathering, with healers, merchants, psychics, etc. I figured that I had nothing planned, so what the heck. I walked around for awhile. Found a woman who was selling organic candles that were beautiful and all sorts of colors. She's from Czechoslovakia and drop dead gorgeous. Just moved to Colorado Springs. We got started talking as I was looking at her literature and sales guide when I saw that she's a medium as well. She welcomed me in her booth and I got 20 minutes for $20.
She first said, "Something happened to make you start all over and reinvent yourself. You're drastically different than you were 10 years ago. Not a death. But something life altering." Yep, the D. She could see that it was a time when I decided to clean up my mess and move on. She could also see that he and I repaired our R and now have a genuine friendship and indicated that we were never right for each other and I knew that. Yes, I did. I came close to calling off the wedding twice. Go figure.
She then said that I married my dad (true again), and although that works for my mom, it didn't work for me. She reassured me by saying I've learned the lesson so to relax. Kat, this next part is for you.... she wrinkled up her adorable nose and said, "the men who have dropped in your life. Not your fault, they're just there. They're not real men. Wow. What I'm trying to say, strings. They're like... puppet men? They act like who they think the audience wants them to be. Does this make sense?" Uh yes, it makes sense. She continued, "You are disgusted by this and it's definitely come in to play when it comes to allowing yourself to find someone." I smiled. Yep again. "Well, you were right! In fact, your intuition is fabulous and you're right about a lot of people and their motivations." "Well, guess what? Someone you haven't yet met will suddenly appear out of nowhere at the end of the year or beginning of next year. I'm seeing Christmas decorations, so give or take a month there. No preparation is necessary. Just give him a chance. He'll interest you right off the bat, but you won't be head over heels for him. You'll want to see if he's worth your time, go slow and work on a friendship with him first. You'll be interested and so will he, so this will work."
Can you say that's exactly what I've wanted all along?
Dennis showed up. That was awesome. He told me some things that his best friend had already thought was true. And he left by telling me he has a vested interest in my success here on earth and my happiness. And that he will always love me and my girls.
And finally, my brother showed up. He didn't really want to but felt he needed to. She said, "Did he commit suicide?" I told her no. "Then his exit from this earth was designed by him and he had a big hand in it." True again. Anyway, he felt he needed to say he was sorry to me for letting me down and not being as strong as I am. That makes me really sad, BTW. I truly don't know why someone wouldn't fight hard to do the right thing for their kids. But it's not my place to judge, right?
So today, I feel at peace. There's a calmness I haven't felt in awhile, and I'm enjoying it. Kind of like when you sit down and put a really heavy, comfortable blanket around your shoulders. The weather is gorgeous, and I really should take a walk, but we'll see how far I get in putting stuff away and getting rid of D21's bedroom stuff, which is now in my family room. I'm not going to want a bed and 2 dressers in there much longer. Well, at least longer than they need to be there.
Hope everyone has a wonderful weekend!
Bets
"There are only 2 ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle. The other is as though everything is a miracle."
