Thanks Gan. I agree on that last line. And I don't want to sound needy. I want to feel in five years time that I was happy to send this email. That it was sent from the bottom of my heart.

And I feel more.....warrior princess....I want to be strong, brave and true. Despite what he may feel and do at this point. I want to say that the love we had in our family is what truly matters to me and that I will stand up and be counted for it.

And he can do with that what he may.

T 13 M 7
Me 48 H 46
SS 15
BD 7.14 PA
D final 5.16 (H filed)

We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus