Thank you all for your loving words, thoughts and prayers. They are so encouraging. I know we all have our challenges and pray for each one of you.
In 2013 I found a lump - breast cancer. It was also in 3 lymph nodes making it Stage IIIC. Practically stage IV. So I had a double mastectomy with a D-FLAP (reconstruction using my own tissue). I was highly encouraged to do the chemo, radiation and hormone therapy route and I said no. Now it's stage IV.
I went "holistic". I just really didn't want to do all of the conventional treatments. I did make a friend who was almost like me and did the conventional route and practically two yrs later she also has stage IV. So though we tried different paths and we both came to the same place. Hmmm?
I practically became complete vegan, using a ton of supplements, and juicing lots of veggies. It worked for this entire time until my H left.
Anyway, I will be continue as much integrative medicine along with conventional medicine. I still follow prayer, focused healing meditations, green tea, juicing veggies, alkaline diet, alkaline water, supplement regiments (name the supplement - I have it), yoga, acupuncture, running, and I belong to a great support group. I know the more I stress the more the cancer will grow.
I will have my mom stay with me during the treatment time to see how I do. Meantime, my two older children will be getting their driver's license soon to help with transporting themselves and their siblings to church, sports practice, etc. It'll help a lot.
My friends have already signed up to help feed my family on a schedule and there are some organizations that help with a maid service for those undergoing treatment. So I do have help.
I am learning to let go of H and all the other mess. It's hard to see the pain in my children's eyes.
Everyday, I have to consciously examine my words, thoughts and actions so that I can be there for my children. I am learning to share experiences with them. Nothing fancy just being there while they share their thoughts and feelings. Watching them play outside. We enjoy the outdoors. Like I said earlier - I don't want to die yet.
I gotta be here and I pray the Lord wills it for my children and for me.
I know that God is the ultimate HEALER and God is good---all the time!! Keep y'all posted. Thanks again for your beautiful thoughts and prayers. Praying for wisdom, discernment, protection, healing and mercy.
